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I still think of you sometimes
and hate myself for doing so
each time your image penetrates my brain
I want to vomit
I want to break things
I feel pain and anger
and I despise you
I hate that you impacted me 
and years later you continue to trigger this anguish
don't you get so arrogant
and convince your pathetic self
that it is a power over me
rather you should be grateful
that I am protecting you 
from the evil thoughts I have about you
since their energies are what hold the power
and have the ability to destroy you
I hate you and I may never forgive you
and even though I still think of you at times
and these thoughts impact me
like the rape of my mind
you should be thankful
that I have control over my response to the violation
and otherwise
keep you safe