April 8, 2013
Yesterday I felt like shit. All around shit. Mental shit, physical shit, emotional shit, spiritual and psychological shit. But it was a nice day. So I went for a walk. I went to the park and sat on a bench. I watched the ducks and geese. I heard children playing. I saw lots of families. I felt so disconnected from it all. It didn’t help that I was high and drunk off my ass. I wore sunglasses and sat still so maybe people didn’t notice it so much. I just sat and smoked one cigarette after another.
I realized that the more drugs I do, the less drugs people see me do. I’m no longer sharing the high with other people. I sneak off to do it privately, hiding most of my use from everyone, except of course Dave. But even he thinks I’m getting the shit…
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